The Courage To Be A Mother

What is the meaning of FAMILY? It means, "Father And Mother I Love You!"

This is a photo when my sister, Amber has her second pregnancy.

When my niece kiss my nephew, that's the moment most touching me. :)

YuQian, my one month old nephew. Welcome to this beautiful world.

My sister recent family photo.

Yesterday, I have a wonderful moment with my niece and nephew, especially my nephew, a one month old baby boy. He is cute and delight my day.

I have a great chat with my sister, from helping her taking care of baby. I can see the love and care from a mother. Through her life, I can see how a mother dedicate her patience, love, and care to her family. She asked me," So, when is your turn to be a mother?" When this question came to me, a sour feeling rush through my inner belly. I asked myself, is it because I feel shame about myself, for not having a baby yet? In my age of 29 years old.

From building a family with my husband, our commitment is started. I used to plan to have my first pregnancy within this year. However, a sense of unsure always makes me wondering, "Is this what I want? To be a mother?" I admire others when they hug their babies in their chest, that kind of warm feeling always inspire me.

Those moment keep me thinking, why should not I become a mother? Money, time or other good reason I can give for myself of not having my own child? I really don't know. However, since yesterday I witness the power of love from a mother. It really told me something. A motherhood, it just likes a gift I want to send for myself. It is something more than only responsibility. It is about the giving, the nurturing, and the transformation.

I remember I heard an old proverb before, "A woman can be perfected in her marriage, but she is completed when the moment she gives birth." I do not know how true is this, but it hits me the most. Just like a wake up call, to take my gut and walk into the motherhood.

Maybe I should just leave my plan to God, trust myself that I am able to cope my life when a new life is born.

Maybe I should just go and without asking why, since no one can answer but only I can tell when I experience it myself.

Maybe I will know the answer when I just take a baby step and see what is going to happen.

Maybe...maybe...maybe...

It is nothing as a "perfect moment", I know this so well. This is how I educate my students, my clients, my friends. I think this is what God try to tell me. "Go and do it, my child. You can find out the truth and strength in love."

Find the strength in Love. What a beautiful message, it gives me hope and faith. This is a journey I am learning, and I learn to take out my courage and go for it. If you ask me, "Do you afraid? I will tell you, "Yes, very much." But I am going to do it, to "be a mother".

Thank you for my lovely sister, you do not how much you inspire me. You and your family members always show me the meaning of a "family". Your courage and patience teach me to make it done no matter how. Just like you, you face up and make it happen no matter how! I love you, my lovely sister.

What is the meaning of FAMILY? It means, "Father And Mother I Love You!" It is so true.

Love and hugs!

夫妻之道

今天，难得我今天可以七点就回到家了，比平时早得很。我和丈夫可以在家好好的吃一顿晚饭。饭后，我们和两只狗狗玩，豆豆和冰冰。

平时，丈夫老是把豆豆给弄得很生气的，我劝了很多次，狗儿要好好地教。别老是弄得它都生气的。我一时心直口快，老公脸色一沉。哎！我心里暗想，我是不是 太直接了呢？

后来，这么巧电视节目中播出的一支广告，广告里道出了我的心声，“百世修来同船渡，前世修来共枕眠”。老公看着电视银幕，没有说话。空气突然变得凝固似的，我深深抽了一口气，真希望他明白我的用心良苦。

两夫妻最重要的是，包容和体谅。毕竟两个不同背景的人相处在一起的，学的就是互相珍惜，爱护。有时，我曾想过，是不是我的职业病作祟，一言道破他的个性...因为，这种情况已不是第一次了。

曾有一位和我工作相识的长辈劝过我，“Alice，放工回家后，就把你的”按钮“给关上，别老是用你的通灵能力，毕竟，家人是你最亲的一部分，他们有最脆弱的一面，而给你有付出的机会。要是你和老公两人都这么厉害，一语道破心中话，那两人不就很没趣了吗？”

现在想回长辈的话，也挺对的。毕竟我每天面对的客户，就是需要我的感应帮助他们。那当我回了家，就该当个“当家”的黄脸婆，做个简简单单的太太。

我相信，简单也可以是很幸福的。