I'm Back! :D

Almost two weeks, I have not update my blog. I was away to Taipei, Taiwan. This is a vacation was organized by a group of best buddies.

From the continuous days, I will updates my Taipei travel diaries on my blog. It is a sweaty trip, hot summer!!

Being Real to Your Heart

I have a client, a successful career lady. She always with her big smile, saying "Hello" to everyone. No matter in the lift or in any restaurant she walks in. This is "her". Her greeting and warmth always delight me. She is my regular client, she know when is the "perfect timing" to come. Through answering her question in the reading process, it shows lots of insight, messages that bring me firm and grounded.

"Guard your heart, no matter how." I remember when a channeled message brought to her by the holy master, Jesus. She went through a financial crisis in her fashion business, in the meantime, she facing the risk of her heart disease. She will go through a heart operation in July.

When she panic and nervous about this issues, she asked me, "Alice, do you think I can cross over of all these? You know, I have really no idea, after I lost the direction of my career, I always have arguments with my spouse. He seems get bored to my sharing. Why he never listen to me? My son, uuhh, I so worry about him. I am thinking, what subjects should he take when he get into college. And my heart, haih! How am I going to...."

I silently listen on what she said. A 45 years old woman, with a proper attire, tears roll on her cheek. At that moment, I feel my surrounding suddenly become very quiet, I can't even listen anything from my physical ears. My heart is numb, and mix with a strong sense of pain. How true is all these feelings that I am experience now? I question myself. However, I started listen her sorrow, disappointment, pain, inner scream, and the wanting of freedom. All of her sharing become a series of feeling....yes, all are feelings.

I took few deep breaths, continue staring on her, wiping the tears. The sympathy and pain that I can feel in my chest is so vivid. It is a real pain, just like a sword pierce through my heart. I stop her sharing, and asked her closed her eyes. I took her hand, place on her heart, and said, "Feel it, feel your pain, sorrow, disappointment, frustration, anger.... really feel it now. Let them go through you. They have no power on you, they are just the feelings that you experience."

"It's ok. Everything will be alright. Take a few deep breath." She cried out loud in front of me. I saw her vulnerability, sense her fear, feel her nervous....again, everything happen at that moment, is so real to me and her.

I sit back on my chair, let the music came through me, my tears same like her, rolling down to my cheek. An inner voice comfort me, "Feel it, Alice. The only way out, is through. Feel your pain, and disappointment. It's ok. They have no power on you." Both of us, just like the little girls, weeping around the corner when something hurt us thoroughly.

I wipe off my tears, give a smile on her. Even though she was still with her eyes closed. I saw the most real and natural expression of a human being. Cry when you pain, laugh when you happy. Scream when you fear...the side of real and spontaneous. How long I forgot about my vulnerability, I don't know. But through her, she show me, completely. That side of us, being real, authentic, and honest.

I remember a closed friend told me before, "Alice, you know, you can easily covering your true emotion. No one will know it, but You are the only one can feel it for yourself. Only when you allow yourself to go for it. I never see your cry when you have the sadness. I only feel that you are just like a beautiful scenery, a lake beside the snow mountain, so peace and serene. Do you have the time when you cry?"

This message always ringing on mind when I have my sadness and despair, especially when I cry. Again, it reminds me, "Being real, and honest to myself. Saying the words that is true to my heart. Doing the work that is expressing from my soul."

At least at this moment, I know, all these words, is so true to my heart.

The only way out, is TROUGH

Video created by Terje Sorgjerd

For details: www.tersophotography.com

"This was filmed between 29th April and 10th May 2011 in the Arctic, on the archipelago Lofoten in Norway.

My favorite natural phenomenon is one I do not even know the name of, even after talking to meteorologists and astrophysicists I am none the wiser.What I am talking about I have decided to call The Arctic Light and it is a natural phenomenon occurring 2-4 weeks before you can see the Midnight Sun.

The Sunset and Sunrise are connected in one magnificent show of color and light lasting from 8 to 12 hours. The sun is barely going below the horizon before coming up again. This is the most colorful light that I know, and the main reason I have been going up there for the last 4 years, at the exact

same time of year, to photograph. Based on previous experience, I knew this was going to be a very

difficult trip. Having lost a couple of cameras and some other equipment up there before, it was crucial to bring an extra set of everything. I also

made sure I had plenty of time in case something went wrong.

If you can imagine roping down mountain cliffs, or jumping around on slippery rocks covered in seaweed with 2 tripods, a rail, a controller,

camera, lenses, filters and rigging for 4-5 hour long sequences at a time, and then

having to calculate the rise and fall of the tides in order to capture the essence - it all proved bit of a challenge.

And almost as if planned, the trip would turn out to become very

difficult indeed. I had numerous setbacks including: airline lost my

luggage, struggling to swim ashore after falling into the Arctic sea: twice, breaking lenses, filters, tripod, computer, losing the whole dolly rig and controller into the sea, and even falling off a rather tall rock and ending

up in the hospital. As much as I wanted to give up, the best way Out is

always “Through”. I am glad I stuck it through though because there were some amazing sunrises waiting. At 1:06 you see a single scene from day to night to day.

I asked the very talented Marika Takeuchi to specifically compose and

perform a song for this movie, and what she came up with is absolutely remarkable. Thank you very much Marika!"

~Terje Sorgjerd

When I watch the video of Terje Sorgjerd, I could not stop thinking how to make this piece of art work. Maybe this creative work same go for my journey. It is a going THROUGH journey. From writing my book, go to write my blog, shares the beautiful spiritual lessons that I have gone through from my healing job...

Anything it can be, I really hunger for that breakthrough. Some enormous feeling rush through me, how long am I still need to go through. That "little voice" may wake me up in the middle of night. When I read the sharing of the author during the journey he captures those images, he went through difficulties and setbacks, from lost his luggage in the airport, fall on the rock when capturing on the shores, until lost few sets of cameras.

The insistence of him make me wondering, where is the place I can turn to when I need this kind of inspiration. Without hesitation, Norway. This is the only word always cross my mind since young.

It has been a country that I long wish to go, to explore, and for the northern light, officially named as aurora borealis. That kind of urge always push me to find my way.

Everytime when I have met the setback, I will turn to my heart to visualize I were in Norway riding the husky sledge, or flip the images that I captured in Norway. Every piece of images, sooth my heart when things were not working out. At that time, I was just like a little child, when the moment I fall down, I would take out my secretly placed safe box, unfold all the pictures and candies to sooth my wound. When things go into contrary, the visualization of Norway bring me cross over those critical moments.

Finally, Norway become a place that I can choose to find my inspiration and peace. The visualization just like a beautiful bridge bring me connect to my dream. In the journey of pursuit my dream to be a spiritual healer, I know there may have prices for me to pay and go through. Just like the photographer Terje said,

"The only way out, is Through."

Going "through", experience your nervous, fear, pain when you walk on the journey.

You may need to commit to your dream, no matter how, keep your eyes on the light side of everything. Keep your faith as high as possible just like the eagle flying as high as it can to hunt the food.

Well, there are many ways for us to go Through, we may get disappointed in the process of Through. In the meantime, our inspiration, hope, and excitement will finally keep us alive.

Through, it is a journey that give us the depth of practicing our faith when we pursue our journey. Just like the old proverb once said, "When you trust Life, Life will trust you!"