Miaomi, Rest in Peace!

Miaomi and Fat Tune are the kitten we adopted since 5 years ago.

Miaomi went missing in last 2 months. Deep in my heart has an inner knowing, she left us to depart into another world. I read books about pet transcend into another life and those books help me recover from the grieve and loss. I found that, dogs and cats went missing when they instinctively know the "time" to pass on. Normally, they left their family and choose not to let their owner witness their death. The purpose for animal to do so is intended for reducing the pain of loss them. What a wonderful being they are!

That day when I got my mum's call about her missing, I prayed immediately to Saint Anthony, who is the saint that can help us re-allocate the misplace items. I went panic and did not know what else I can do at that time.

I took a meditation in office, and I asked angel to give me a sign, if my cat is departed and save in the hand of angels. I asked for that sign which is clear enough for me to recognize. 5 minutes later, I was guided to flip my prayer books from Julia Cameron. When the page appeared to me, I could not stop from crying, the message immediately affirmed me about Miaomi is safe and in the arm of God. The words of the prayer shown, "The healing granted to you for the grief and loss from your lovely departed one, knowing that They heard you and love you very much." I was so amazed and relief from that pain of loss even though my tears was not stopping.

That message flush off my guilt towards Miaomi, it heals me from blaming myself not taking good care of her.

I dedicate this little message to my beloved departed loved dogs and cats.

"Please know that how much I love you. My life is getting better and I believe you lend your divine hand every moment when I almost lost my faith. Knowing that our family getting closer, harmony, and loving ever since the visit of your pure souls. The moment you be with us is priceless and no words can describe how grateful I am. Thank you for everything you taught me. It reminds me the inner purity of my soul and love. I received your healing and I still miss you. May all the holy angels be with you in love, peace, and harmony."

Searching The Light

A spiritual messenger is nothing more than anyone, as we are equally the same as the beautiful being. Most of the time, we deny ourselves in certain ways due to our past unpleasant experiences.

There is a Light in this world, It exist in this Universe. It shows me just like a flow of life. It is ceaseless flowing, beautiful, peace, and bringing a sense of tranquility. We are part of it, as the bible stated, "You are the child of God." And Buddhist said, "There is a Buddha lies within you." You are someone special, unique, and beautiful within. A personality cannot be concluded by any words.

In most of my consultation sessions, people are trapped within their own fear. They deny, judge, and even cruel to they own feeling. Yes, I use the word "cruel".

Do you have the experience, when you are totally exhausted, yet you force yourself to work overtime just to complete a task regardless how tired you are. You argue within your own self, you tell yourself, you MUST complete it, since this is your RESPONSIBILITY.

Well, there is nothing wrong. You may even gain your own respect since you found you achieve the"hardest" part. However, you start to have the self-denial in the long run when you continuously take yourself for granted. You started to have those chatter thoughts like, "I must work it well, this is not perfect enough." Or "I need to finish this, and then that one, and another one....". "I can get it done as soon as I finish this." You are wondering, why all the task and duties are never ending.

And, you forgot when is the last time you play, laugh, and have fun with your loved one. They could be your children, your dearest parents, friends.

So, you are wondering, why I don't have the happiness even though I complete all tasks that I thought I should do.

Christian Andreason had his near death experience since an accidental overdose of anesthesia while he was having the dental surgery. He is an award-winning recording artist and singer. After his NDE experience in 1995, he devoted himself to work with thousands of people to face life by his spiritual connection with The Light.

"I became more fully aware of the fact that God (our Creator) wants us to experience everything that we wish to experience. Nothing is denied us, only that which we inherently deny ourselves. And while certain experiences do not always lead to pleasant outcomes, they do lead us to a certain amount of enlightment. Especially as one return his or her thinking to The Light and focuses on God's wish for us to learn a more loving ways to live our lives."

As always, you can choose the optimal alternative to face your life. I make that "choice" in two years ago when I lost my passion in my banking job. The moment when I lost that passion, I had a big trouble. I lost any interest to work, to satisfy the needs of my company and clients. I did not like to compete with others, I did not like to climb the corporate ladders like all colleagues are doing. So, what am I going to do? Unexpected, my inner dissatisfactions end up push me to search that freedom. The freedom of doing thing by my way. If you are curious what is your way to get that, you are almost there.

I left all "how" behind, I crossed over it with faith. I don't know where is that little "faith" comes from. But it is a voice always lead me go along this journey with abundance happy coincidence, loving and kindness people, and thousands of encouragement. That's The Light I am searching for.

If you are the one who are making this choice, please receive my blessings for you. I know, you may meet the Light and Voice within. It is just there with you!

The Meaning of Life

I know there is something in our life we need to learn and accept it.

I know it is not that easy to do than say it. I mean, I know it. I have that part of life that I am afraid to accept.

I married with my hubby two years ago, we have a happy marriage life. Occasionally, we have arguments from some tiny things. Sometimes, I cried alone in office after angel reading for some clients when they share the same story like me.

But I know I need to learn to love the person I found, the success of marriage never about keep finding the right one, the other one...again again and again. How many divorce you can expect?

I know my husband family background make him wiser, he came from the broken family as parents divorced, and we all think that a good life can be started when we stay together with my mother in law.

Nevertheless, a year ago, we found that my mum in law have an affair with a married man. I remember an angel has told me before, but I thought it was only a fancy message with my vain imagination. During my spiritual development, I teach people facing marriage affair and third party issue by courageous. Yet, when I came home, I need to "face" with another truth that I am facing too.

Two days ago, my husband posted a video link in my Facebook account, that's "THE MEANING OF LIFE". After the video, I felt my heart pain, that's pain reminded me about my family, my husband, and my mother-in-law.

I know how much my mother-in-law loves us, and I just need to accept the man that she choose. I think, one day, an answer will come to us. I pray for it. I have stopped her to do so as she may interfere the marriage of others, I know how this feeling is about, those things happen on my clients' life. However, she kept her thought and going on what she wants, and I finally surrender to her decision.

Angels told me, "Let her goes along the journey, she can find the answer one day."

Just like the video taught me, face with life, be true to yourself, follow your heart...

When I follow my heart, I know there is something wrong in the relationship of my mother-in-law and the man, but I choose to respect her choice. Since, we have done whatever we can to advise. If she will realize one day, she will know what to do!

I think, the meaning of life, is about facing the truth, accept it with forgiveness, and respect those you love.

The Flash of Light

Have you seen any light flashed in the corner of your eyes during night time?

Have you seen any tinkling light shown in your bedroom?

Have you seen shadow moving when you closed eyes just prepare to sleep?

I know, we are all protected by our angels. They visit us during our sleeping time. They talk to us in our dream. Some of clinical experiences shown that people was brought to another beautiful scenery by a group of magnificent light beings.

I remember I had those experiences a year ago. At that night, when I got into my bed and ready to sleep. It was about midnight 12am. The room was quiet, and I ususally pray before I sleep. I was lying on bed when I talk to God and angels. That's also my Aha moment. Sometimes I heard They answer me. Most of the time, I fall asleep easily during my pray.

At that night, I talk to angels before I sleep like usual, in the middle of my prayer, I saw a flash of golden dust sprayed down from the ceiling. Even though I closed my eyes, I can see shadow moving in front of me. I got nervous, I slowly opened my eyes, and the golden dust disappeared. I stared on the ceiling wondering what was that?

Just when I was confused, I saw tinkling light like a small tiny dot rapidly shining around the corner of my eyes. This scene woke me up and I turn on the light in the room. I prayed for Archangel Michael for spiritual protection.

About few minutes after my prayer, I feel a sense of peace and calm. The peace feeling rush through my crown to my toes. I felt safe. When I was going to turn off the light to sleep, a voice told me, "You have seen the magnificent being of light, They would love to give you the healing that you asked for."

I got surprised when I heard this message, I did not know when I pray for this healing. In the next few days after that night. My marriage getting smoothly (me and my hubby had some disagreement during that period of time. There was arguments and I was despaired). And I found my way of communication with my hubby improved tremendously.

After few days, I was told by Divine voice in one of my meditation, I was healed during that night when I sleep, angels talk to subconscious and expand my consciousness into love and patience. This healing assist me expand my perceptions towards my marriage breakdown during last year.

I found that angels are hearing our prayers every moment, now and then. Do not afraid of asking help from Divine. Even the most tiny incident you feel shy to ask for help, you can always talk to the magnificent angels. They are here with you, taking care of you.

My Berry-Blue

After I came back from Norway, I still miss the air and people of Scandinavian. I did not learn much about their custom in life. I realized Norwegian has passion towards the nature environment, especially I got the "berry blue" after I came back. I miss the homemade Scandinavian blueberry cheesecake. I had chance to taste it during my angel reading trip in Oslo. I was invited by a client, Heidi for her homemade dinner. She cooked a tom yam clear soup, pair with bread, butter and cheese. As a Malaysian, it is fresh to me to have a soup as our full meal. I love it very much, it warmed me up since the weather in Oslo is pretty cool for me. I heard my client said they like to have hot soup during winter season as their main course.

After the dinner, me and my girlfriend have the chance to taste Heidi homemade blueberry cheesecake. It looked like a pie, it was made by a type of mousse cream but tastes like cheese after it was freezed. In the bottom of the cake, there is a thin layer of crunchy biscuit, it was made by flour and butter. Heidi said Norwegian likes to pluck wild berry to put on top of desserts, such as blueberry waffle. Normally, you can see blueberry blossom during late August in Tromso but earlier in south of Norway.

Also, butter is common to find in scandinavian food. In breakfast, they love to eat bread together with ham and a slice of butter. During the Norway trip, I found amazed when I saw butter was left on table for few hours still remain perfect shape, if I put butter on my dining table in Malaysia for only an hour. You get disappointed that it melts very quickly due to the warm and humid weather.

I miss you, my blueberry cheesecake...

Her dream come true

I was thinking about a friend who flew to New Zealand last night. This has been a dream for Kah May in this 3 years. She has gone through many difficulties and lessons before she take the gut and make this change.

Me and Kah May used to work in the same company as the mortgage banker. She always cheers up and bring laughter to those around her. Of course, she went through the hardest time in the fast pace bannking environment.

After I resigned from banking job, we lost the contact of each other. When I was discovering the journey as an angel messenger. She came in my life and share her stories and difficulties. I believe God make our friendship stronger from then on, as I have someone I can share with.

Last year, I received a vision seeing her leave the country and go for oversea job. During the time I told her about my vision, she was amazed how this vision would be, since she never received any job offer from oversea. I encouraged her to stay tuned with this vision, it may be turn out as something that she long desires.

On this year January, she got the inspiration to go for New Zealand working holiday. Her working visa was approved after 2 days she applied. She was so excited and grab me for a celebration.

I recalled those memory Kah May have given to me. I found that how fascinating to see her dream come true. We have a farewell for her before she fly off. She kept told me, "It's time for me to go home, I am not nervous, I feel peace to go there alone. The feeling of mine is peace." Her expression shown she makes the right move.

Her story inspires me to believe, we all has something we want to fulfill. Even though we do not know what is that, and how it will be. If we have the grateful heart to treat our present moment with sincerity, one day we will be there. Our dream come true.

May happy coincidence, health, and safety be with Kah May. May her be blessed always. :) I love you, my dear friend.

Checking...checking!!

Hmm...welcome back, Alice. You are back on your work desk, open your blog. It is covered by a thin layer of dust.

I spend few weeks to "rehab" from I get lost on my work. Private reading, e-reading, workshops...and etc. I tried to brainstorm the future of my work. I was so stuck in my desk and I need inspiration. If I was physically tired, I know I can heal from my yoga. But I know I was not. It seems like my soul was torn apart, like the fallen leaf spread on the floor.

I need fresh air breath in my lung, I need cool air breeze my days. So, I booked the flight, flew from my home to thousands miles away, a place that I have never been before, Norway. I believe one of my past live I had been there before. Since young, I already had so much of visions and de javu shown about this place.

Now, I am recharged!