The Courage To Be A Mother

What is the meaning of FAMILY? It means, "Father And Mother I Love You!"

This is a photo when my sister, Amber has her second pregnancy.

When my niece kiss my nephew, that's the moment most touching me. :)

YuQian, my one month old nephew. Welcome to this beautiful world.

My sister recent family photo.

Yesterday, I have a wonderful moment with my niece and nephew, especially my nephew, a one month old baby boy. He is cute and delight my day.

I have a great chat with my sister, from helping her taking care of baby. I can see the love and care from a mother. Through her life, I can see how a mother dedicate her patience, love, and care to her family. She asked me," So, when is your turn to be a mother?" When this question came to me, a sour feeling rush through my inner belly. I asked myself, is it because I feel shame about myself, for not having a baby yet? In my age of 29 years old.

From building a family with my husband, our commitment is started. I used to plan to have my first pregnancy within this year. However, a sense of unsure always makes me wondering, "Is this what I want? To be a mother?" I admire others when they hug their babies in their chest, that kind of warm feeling always inspire me.

Those moment keep me thinking, why should not I become a mother? Money, time or other good reason I can give for myself of not having my own child? I really don't know. However, since yesterday I witness the power of love from a mother. It really told me something. A motherhood, it just likes a gift I want to send for myself. It is something more than only responsibility. It is about the giving, the nurturing, and the transformation.

I remember I heard an old proverb before, "A woman can be perfected in her marriage, but she is completed when the moment she gives birth." I do not know how true is this, but it hits me the most. Just like a wake up call, to take my gut and walk into the motherhood.

Maybe I should just leave my plan to God, trust myself that I am able to cope my life when a new life is born.

Maybe I should just go and without asking why, since no one can answer but only I can tell when I experience it myself.

Maybe I will know the answer when I just take a baby step and see what is going to happen.

Maybe...maybe...maybe...

It is nothing as a "perfect moment", I know this so well. This is how I educate my students, my clients, my friends. I think this is what God try to tell me. "Go and do it, my child. You can find out the truth and strength in love."

Find the strength in Love. What a beautiful message, it gives me hope and faith. This is a journey I am learning, and I learn to take out my courage and go for it. If you ask me, "Do you afraid? I will tell you, "Yes, very much." But I am going to do it, to "be a mother".

Thank you for my lovely sister, you do not how much you inspire me. You and your family members always show me the meaning of a "family". Your courage and patience teach me to make it done no matter how. Just like you, you face up and make it happen no matter how! I love you, my lovely sister.

What is the meaning of FAMILY? It means, "Father And Mother I Love You!" It is so true.

Love and hugs!

God tells me this...

I sit in the food court, seeing people come and go. Some are in rush, some walk in the gentle way. Some grab their food in hunger. Some enjoy their food with group of friends.

I asked myself when I observed...

"What is my purpose here?"

"Do I live my life in a very hunger way?" or

"Do I live in a very gentle way?"

Every morning, I keep asking myself the same questions, "Alice, why are you here? What is your purpose of life?" You know, this is a very same old and boring questions, yet, they always smashed me the most.

It seems like I am not getting my answer at all time. Sometimes, the purpose of my life can be a tiny tasks, such as bring my dogs to a slow walk, grab some flowers on my altar, saying "I love you" to my dear one, or patiently listen to the story of someone who came to me.

I am wondering, God always know who is the person will come to us in the perfect timing. They could be a normal person, saying hello to me when I step into the lift. They could be the person who helped to pick up when my hands are full with stuffs. They could be a stranger give a smile to me when I step into my office lounge. I think, they are "God" in someways, helping me to see the beauty lies within every tiny matter.

I always hear the spiritual gurus say that, "We are all in some part of God, and He is lies within us."

I talked to God every night before I sleep, sometimes I talked "non sense" to Him, telling Him how much I need to pay my bill, how amazing I master a yoga pose. Occasionally, I tell Him, let me to have the stable life, bring me to Norway again to teach those who need You. However, this recently I pray to Him into a broader way...

I tell God,

"Please bring peace to those who need, no matter they have asked or not."

"Please bless those who have anger in heart, help them to forgive."

"Please help those who struggle in life, and do not know where to turn to, shine on Your light to their mind."

Amazingly, I easily get into sleep during this special moment of "conversation with God"...I think, God is telling me, "When you pray for others, this same go for you." And the peace brings me a good rest without hesitation.

We all deserve the freedom to do what we love, and what we passionate about. I like to write my journal in my blog, part of the reason is, connecting with my readers. But the bigger part is, my little journal or self expression could be the turning point of someone's life. I always believe this, and because of this faith, it keeps me to write and share.

I received those appreciative emails and comments, those make me affirm that, "Love bond us together, and it heals every sorrow and pain." Your emails and comments can delight my days, months and years...how wonderful is this!

Know that, I am here always pray for you, always have the peace of mind, the passion to shine, and the love to give.

Know that, I see you as powerful and beautiful as angels, because you are. You have a pair of wings, all you need is to spread it and fly.

God bless you, ALWAYS!

Thought of the day

No one death comes to pass without making some impression, and those close to deceased inherit part of the liberated soul and become richer in their humaneness.

~Hermann Broch

Right or Wrong? Does it really matter?

Too often, we tend to choose what others' think about good for us. They could be our parents, spouse, boss... Then, you have to honestly ask yourself, "Is this decision I really like?" Or, you just choose those decisions others give to you by avoiding the risks of failure?

Tender resignation or stay in your current job? Well, no one can give you the answer, you are the one who walk this journey!

Love and not love? Well, you are the one in this relationship. No one can tell you what is Love only you experience it.

I am right or wrong? Is it really matter? Or be truthful to your own self? Which one hit you mostly?

God had never made ​​any decision for us, but all is lies within my heart!

This thought flashed in when I listen to the music of Brian Crain, somehow, the answer hit me mostly is, "Be the very person of who I am. Be real, be clumsy, be foolish yet freely, be the "alice's way" is really matter!!

Thanks God, you answer my prayer in this solitude moment! Awesome. :)

Blessing in Disguise

I remember 2 years ago, I went to Genting Highland with my husband, Eric. During the journey back to our home, a phone call came in. Eric stopped at the roadside just to pick up this call. As I know him since our first date, he never stopped his car to answer any call. He will either plug in his handset or put on the loudspeaker to answer. He spent about 5 minutes to answer this call, then we continue our journey.

About 15 kilometers later, a very heavy raining was nearby the hillside, and Eric drove slowly since that place is a high risk of car accident area. I prayed to Angel Michael to be with us. Just when I finish my prayer, I saw smoke coming to our windscreen. When we could see clearly, Eric step on his break immediately.

It was a serious accident involved 4 cars banged with a truck. I was shocked at this moment since we could be involved if Eric did not stopped by to answer his call. I remember a yellow sedan car drove in front of us, and the driver was hit badly.

When the ambulance came, I silently give thanks to Angel Michael. And I thanks the person who call Eric. The divine intervention save me and Eric from the danger. This was truly a blessing in disguise.

Ascension Moment

The ending of a long years relationship, the unexpected death of spouse, or a close friend suddenly left us for pursuing her own journey. We all have the solitude moment in life that need courage to cross over.

I was doing some readings for clients and realized many of them are in their "transition" period, such as changing job but do not know which ways should go due to age problem, or a close friend that she used to share her happiest or despair moment suddenly just left her...When I listened to their stories, I know I am not alone.

I asked angels, is it this moment of time we need to face it by ourselves? The loneliness attacked us in every awake moment. Two days ago, I ran out from a friends' gathering. I was not in that "mood" to talk and laugh, and I just didn't want to pretend to laugh when I know I "wasn't" there. I was seeking the quiet moment to indulge myself. I did not know what was going on. Yet, when I stayed alone in cafe with my book, I felt the safety and a feeling of ascension.

Ascension is part of the process we experience in our spiritual journey. It works like the process when you sync your iPhone with your computer to keep the software upgraded. And this same thing go for our soul as well. There is a moment you realized you need to do things by your own, regardless you are in a crowded working place or big family. Deep inside your heart, you do not know how to express the loneliness and frustration you go through. However, when you keep moving into whatever direction you can, you spend time alone, listen the sentimental music, have books to read, go for a slow walk. You were gently being guided to the new ventures of life.

Yes, a total new chapter of life you are moving in. Life is just like our school passing grades, you need to pass from your standard one to standard two. If you are the genius or fast learner, you may jump into standard three. So this same theory is similar in your spiritual journey.

When the moment of chaos and frustration come into in life, they are the reasons push us into another higher level, that's how you ascending into a whole new venture.

I believe we can create and invent our future, if we all do our "own" part. When I tired, I will give space for myself to rest, just like a "rehab" to my soul. Music and books are always my best soul food during the ascension.

Allowing yourself to explore the possibility, look inside your heart to find your divinity. Not just blindly following a guru, channeler or spiritual leader, but through your inner voice. Accept what you experience individually as true. Never let anyone tell you how to make your decision. You can take others' opinion as your reference, but not for dictate your life. Look, listen, recognize, and accept what resonates as true within your heart.

Everyone of us has the ability of "knowing" thing. Through your self-love, you are able to reunion with divinity.

My Gift to You

Glory of Light is a blog created by my intention of love and sharing. I was a clairvoyant since childhood. During my early age, my spiritual vision did not gave me a safe feeling to explore. May be I was so attracted by horror movies, I had the fear to listen the "Voice" that always come from another dimension.

In 2009, my first spiritual connection with Ascended Master, Mother Kwan Yin open my knowingness into another higher level. From then on, my life was shifted into the perspective of 180 degree. Huge changes rumbling into my work, family, and financial. In the same year, I was guided by my heart and discovering the ways to connect with God's messenger, Archangel Michael.

I thought this is only too good to be true, my life is starting with no turning back. I was introduced and guided to know even more Archangels, healing angels, and nature angels. I know this is something more than my fantasy imagination, since I saw those flashes of light since childhood.

With this special calling, I totally lost my passion in any corporate work. Unexpected, my decision to quit my banking job was actually a divine arrangement. I was called by Mother Kwan Yin and Archangel Michael, to share the insight and knowing to those surrounding me. There was where my first angel reading started. With more and more people come to ask for guidance and healing, I realize what I do everyday is just like a messenger to give and bless.

Many dreams and meditation visions continuously given to me. God and Angels allow me to open the door to Divine Love. By the encouragement of Archangel Michael, I start write my blog "Glory of Light" to share everything I know and learned from Divinity. I take my sincerity and courage to tell everyone of you, there is love and hope in this world. We can connect with our guardian angels if we are willing to.

Each of us has our specially designated guardian angel to help us in our pre-destiny journey. The reason I said it as "pre-destiny" is because we all come here for a very special purpose. Well, we have our freewill to choose our own way to go "Home". But if we have any dangers along the journey, Angels is not only a messenger, They give us signs and hints to help us go through safely. With our openness, we can be divinely guided to the place exactly where we are supposed to be in the perfect time. Sometimes, They put up barriers blocking the road where we weren't supposed to be. Everything happens for a reason.

No one is left behind alone. God and angels hear our voices at all time. They whisper to us when we sleep, They show us the answer in the book we read, They calm us with a song suddenly play in your favorite radio channel.

Somewhere in the depth of your heart, your invisible angels guided you here. May be you asked for help before. Based on your loving intention, and They lead you here and tell you, "Hey my dear, We hear you! Have faith with everything is turning into right way." During our difficult times, we may seems not able to get home by the ways we want and expected, but in the end, we reach home by the best way God chose for us.

When God and Angels look at you, all They see is your beauty and perfection. They give us the space to be who we are. Within yourself, there is a special place flow with abundance divine essence. With this essence, Love is all there is. You are a pure divine being radiate the energy of Love, purity, and kindness. Let yourself to feel, God and Angels cradle us whenever we ask.

Welcome to Glory of Light, this is a gift I want to share with you with my love and sincerity. May my sharing and insight given from Divine love, grant you inspiration, growth, and strength. I hope you enjoy here!

Xoxo!

Letter To God

I cannot thank you enough, and I find my best ways to cope. You turn my judgement to love, bless my resentment to forgiveness!

God,

I talk to you again, when I light on a candle. I need someone to be with me. I thought I am ok, but I found something is missing.

I think, You lead those who come into my life, to teach me face Life with deep faith, continuous gratitude, a sense of awe, and Your Divine smile.

Yes! God, I am lonely. In most of time, I am searching the happiness and purpose that I come here. Show me, if there is something more than that. I think, learn to quiet my mind and let my soul to guide me is something I need mostly now.

God, I pray for my friends, may they all stay safe, healthy, peace, and loved. Give them courage when they need, show them the ways when they almost get lost, calm them when they cry. Guide Your holy messenger standby them.

You know, You lead me to talk to those who need you. Because of that, You show me the beauty of friendship, You show me "Giving life is powerful", that give me the courage and strength to be a mother, You teach me the ways to live, by pursuit the simple happiness. You show a rainbow sign, when I was wandered by my decisions. You delight me, when I face with darkness.

Every moment You give, You teach, always make me become a better person. You wipe off my tear, when I hurt myself. You taught me the power of love, when there is always solutions for every problems. You show me the possibility when I shut my door and blind myself.

Now, I become a person to stand strong, to stay courageous, to learn lesson with faith. I cross over!

God, I cannot thank you enough, and I find my best ways to cope. You turn my judgement to love, bless my resentment to forgiveness, I am able to open my arm to receive every blessing You give.

Thank you, my heavenly Father. Amen!

*Video credited Myraadrian Channe, Song: Secret Garden, Always There.